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Thursday
Looking in a mirror, what will i see. I saw a girl looking back at me, that girl was wearing a mask on her face. Even though the mask shown a a really happy face but even so behind those mask, i could actually see those cracks, scars and tears on the face of the girl. From that day on, i realize i dont really recognize myself anymore.
The need of wearing a mask to hide all my true feelings is really really tiring. I'm really sick and tired of pretending that i am okay when actually i'm hurts inside. The feeling of wanting to cry out but i can't really sucks alot.
The reason for pretending that i'm okays is that i dont want others to be worry about me. I dont want to be that person that cause others to be sad as well. Another reason is that nobody cares anyway. To them, im just an invisible girl that nobody ever noticed about. Even if i really wanna tell them my secrets or even the reason of why i'm sad but who can i even tell them too..... there's no one that i can even tell them to. It's not that i dont trust them, it's just that even if i say it out they wouldn't understand the pain that i am having at all.
That's why i rather lock myself in my own world, keeping everything to myself and not letting anyone entering this world of mine.
In the darkness, i can't see anything at all. Not even myself... not even anyone at all ....
i'm all alone... just all alone.. by myself...
The need of wearing a mask to hide all my true feelings is really really tiring. I'm really sick and tired of pretending that i am okay when actually i'm hurts inside. The feeling of wanting to cry out but i can't really sucks alot.
The reason for pretending that i'm okays is that i dont want others to be worry about me. I dont want to be that person that cause others to be sad as well. Another reason is that nobody cares anyway. To them, im just an invisible girl that nobody ever noticed about. Even if i really wanna tell them my secrets or even the reason of why i'm sad but who can i even tell them too..... there's no one that i can even tell them to. It's not that i dont trust them, it's just that even if i say it out they wouldn't understand the pain that i am having at all.
That's why i rather lock myself in my own world, keeping everything to myself and not letting anyone entering this world of mine.
In the darkness, i can't see anything at all. Not even myself... not even anyone at all ....
i'm all alone... just all alone.. by myself...